She spilled her coffee, broke a shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said Im sorry, i
I had a bad day again-Bad Day, Fuel
I feel right now as though nothing will ever be right again. I feel like all the dreams I had for myself have been dashed. I feel like if I could just lay down and die, that would be the best possible thing for the universe.
But life doesn’t happen that way. And tomorrow … is another day.
Another day to hold my head high and keep on with the “fake it til you make it” philosophy. It’s a good philosophy, but damn, I’ve been faking it for a long fucking time.
I stopped the Prozac a while back and that was a mistake. I really, really need health insurance. The drug itself is cheap, but the doctor visit required to get a prescription is… not cheap.
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???!!! Email me. ASAP. Are you still living down there? Or moved? I haven’t read ur blog in a while bc my stupid internet has been jacked up, but OMG. WHY ARE YOU STILL THERE?! Seriously. Why?! The “Jackass”, I’m sorry… I can’t call him The Man… anyway, The JACKASS is a dumb ass. You are soooooooooo worth more then he lets you think. Seriously. He is doing nothing but hold you back. I told you I’d drive down there to get you. I’m seriously, serious. Just give me a call I’ll make plans. I know you don’t think there is much up here, but my GOSH. Seriously. You are miserable down there. I’ve learned a lot of things in life and one of my biggest lessons was that if you continue to be in a crappy situation with crappy people to bring you down to crap all the time…. then that is where you will stay. In crap. Sooooo move up here. If you are really serious about moving up here, I have the hook up with so many ppl….I can seriously find you a place to stay within a week or so. Seriously. Call me or email me.
I think you need to get the heck out of Dodge….
I’ll be waiting on your call.
As much as I agree with Miss Frump, I know that you won’t listen. No offense, it’s not personal. It’s just that nobody listens to advice…they have to learn for themselves. (“Learning the hard way” as my parents would put it).
You will get there some day; you just have to be ready for it. He will push you to the point of no return or you will find someone better. And that will be that. Years later you will look back on it and realize that yes, you learned the hard way, but it was the *only* way.