I’m jittery and shaky and not sleeping enough.  I’m scared of everything.  We haven’t paid nearly enough towards our rent this month and I don’t have the cajones to listen to the voice mail my landlord left.  I’m mad at my brother & Hitler for not contributing and mad that I haven’t made any real progress on renting the rooms out.  I’m scared that they won’t leave willingly at the end of the month and that I’ll have to throw them out, and of the damage that will do to my relationship with my brother.  I’m pissed off that there are empty beer cans in my front yard AGAIN.  I’ve been living on a Dollar Menu diet for entirely too long and I feel like there is a ball of grease in the pit of my stomach… which there probably is.

My house… Well, I can’t keep up with the beer bottles and Taco Bell wrappers.  Or the trash.  Or the dishes.  Never mind getting it in showable condition…

The new job is easy, mentally.  I don’t naturally have the energy to spend 8+ hours ringing up purchases and cleaning a gas station, but energy drinks & Stackers help with that.  Yay for payroll deduction.  Boo for no scheduled lunch or breaks.  Yay for bathroom breaks and locked doors.  Boo for earning a low wage at a somewhat dangerous job, in a distressed economic time when more people are becoming desperate.  Yay for being close to my house.

There are some good grocery sales this week.  One that I find exciting is the continuation of the Safeway (Tom Thumb) Summer Savings Marathon.  Right now boxes of Kleenex are $1.50 each.  There is a Safeway coupon booklet on display next to the weekly circular ads that has a $0.50 off Kleenex coupon.  I grabbed a lot of those books… Seriously a lot, like maybe a hundred.  So I’m going to use coupons to drop the price of 25 boxes of Kleenex to a dollar each.  Because these are participating Marathon products, I will get a $20 coupon toward my next purchase, which means the net cost of my Kleenex will be $0.20 a box.

Albertsons & Kroger are both having “Buy X amount of participating products, get X off instantly at the register” promotions.  I think I can really work the Kroger one because there are so many participating products that I have coupons for.  And on the subject of coupons — thanks, Becky!

Walgreens, Target, and Office Depot are having great sales on back-to-school items.  I really, REALLY wish I were going back to school next month.  That would make everything so incredibly much better.  But even non-students can appreciate five-packs of mechanical pencils for a nickel, right?

I have to get ready for work.  Eeek.